I can remember so many things that have already come and gone. I remember when Zander and Charlotte were a lot closer in size, and at 3am I could get confused at who I was feeding (mostly due to the hour and weight, they really dont look identical at all). I can remember all night noises from Charlotte the little "teridactal" and funny little grunts she would make during the daytime.. She still makes some, but not like before, we used to laugh so hard at some of her noises. I can remember thier skinny litle legs, and arms, now they both have big rolls on thier legs. I can remember how easy it was to hold both of them in my arms, and how they fit so well. I can remember Zander not wanting to sleep in his basinet at night, so we would fall asleep nose to nose on my pillow. I can remember them stirring for a bottle instead of crying loudly demanding a bottle pronto! I remember when they both fit into thier premie cloths, and then Zander grew out of his, and finally Charlotte grew out of hers. I remember the carseat's frequently needing readjusting, as it still does. I remember having to keep them awake just to get 2oz of formula in them. I remember the nurses in the NICU being so helpfull and teaching us so many things to help care for them. I remember Miss Lorie, our favorite NICU nurse, always giving extra love to them, and always so happy to see them, and us. I remember the tube in thier noses to feed whatever they didnt drink from thier bottles, and I remember Zander pulling it out a few times (not a fun task to reinsert it). I remember walking down the halls of Sacred Heart, with carseats and babies in tow, making our way home at last. I remember when they could easily sleep side by side in thier crib. I remember our parents seeing them for the first time, the love and excitment they all had, as we finally got to share our family with our loved ones. I remember finally getting to go see Jennifer, for the first time since the hospital, and meeting her daughter and mother. I remember how happy she was to see Zander and Charlotte, and how alert and talkative they both were that day. I remember the drive there, and having to change babies in public restrooms, and feed them in the car. I remember when thier premie diapers looked big on them. I remember the heat bed at the hospital. I remember Zander coming home with an apnea monitor. I remember all the fuss finding a good formula for them was. I remember thier first major diaper rashes, and how badly I felt. I remember when thier faces were still swollen and new, and thier ears still had extra folds. I remember wrinkled tiny little feet. I remember how my heart melted the first time daddy held them both at once, and how in awe I was to see this become a reality. I remember giving my first Mothers Day to Jennifer, and being ok with that. I remember her appreciation for me on that day, and how she called me that day to wish me a happy first mother's day. I remember crying when I got off the phone with her (cuz she's so awsome). I remember finally seeing the first smiles, how precious to finally have them look up at you and smile. I remember how I tear up at night as I tuck them into bed, in awe at what has come of my life. I remember the moment I fell in love with them.....
And this is just the 3 month mark? :)
